I spent most of my day yesterday in urgent care for what I thought was a kidney infection. Long story short, it’s just an interstitial cystitis flare up. I was told to stop taking Pyridium because it concentrates the urine in the bladder. It is only good for short term, acute pain not long term symptoms. I am still in pain at 2pm Monday afternoon, but it seems a little better now that the meds are getting out of my system.

I wish I had an infection because I am still peeing out blood which is super uncomfortable but I am happy to not take antibiotics. The doctor wouldn’t do anything for pain considering he wasn’t my urologist and there was “nothing wrong”. So I must suffer with my abdominal and flank and urinary pain.

I passed out around 9pm and woke up a little before 2am. I woke up to an email from my school saying that a refund was made on my account, I am unsure if it will come by mail or not. I should probably figure that out. At first I thought I owed the school $906 but after further investigation, I realized it is the other way around.

I was supposed to go to an AA meeting last night but ended up not because I felt terrible. Not mentally, just physically in pain. I think I am finally at a place in my life where I want to get sober and do what’s best for me.

I woke up around 10:30am this morning and called my new job asking what the deal was. I guess they found out on Friday evening that my background check was good but no body called me to make sure I could come in today so I start work tomorrow at 9:30am. I could have gone in today but I figured one more day of rest and cleaning wouldn’t hurt me. I didn’t ask what they hired me on at; but I have a feeling I got the pay rate I asked for. Even if I didn’t, I’ll be making decent money no matter how much I make. Some money is better than no money which is what I am making now.

My mom and I got lunch to celebrate and now I am sleepy. But I really do need to clean and get some stuff together so I started my laundry and now I got to call my insurance because I keep getting a repeat medical bill that I thought was already paid for. So why I keep getting the same bill in the mail, I am unsure.

So things are looking up for sure if I could just feel better. This bladder disease takes it right out of me and all I want to do is rest. But with Red Bull and Christ, all things are possible. I just have to take things one step at a time.

Much love,

Dani