oh so young

my innocence no longer here

I try to find somewhere near

with ecstasy and xanny bars

I no longer know who you are

I lost myself long ago

oh what for? what’s the use

we won’t call a truce

I’m losing my mind every night

popping pills like they just might fix the blinding light

I see nothing but clouds on a sunny day

to Him I pray

Lord take me away

create in me a clean heart

restore the sinner that’s within me

filled with sickness that will never rest

people say I am blessed

all I feel is panic, aggression, and agitation

it all led to my probation

staying good to stay out of jail

who the fuck cares

that I had an affair

four years ago one winter night

you still pick a fight

til my dying breath leaves me be

maybe death will set me free

of demons to lean on.

tonight I self medicate

I feel irate

I just want to rest

I just want to rest.