Just want to rest.

oh so young

my innocence no longer here

I try to find somewhere near

with ecstasy and xanny bars

I no longer know who you are

I lost myself long ago

oh what for? what’s the use

we won’t call a truce

I’m losing my mind every night

popping pills like they just might fix the blinding light

I see nothing but clouds on a sunny day

to Him I pray

Lord take me away

create in me a clean heart

restore the sinner that’s within me

filled with sickness that will never rest

people say I am blessed

all I feel is panic, aggression, and agitation

it all led to my probation

staying good to stay out of jail

who the fuck cares

that I had an affair

four years ago one winter night

you still pick a fight

til my dying breath leaves me be

maybe death will set me free

of demons to lean on.

tonight I self medicate

I feel irate

I just want to rest

I just want to rest.

5 Comments Add yours

  1. Doesn't matter says:

    Becareful this is deep yet simplistic yet dark

    Becareful.

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    1. I remember you… give me a text or a call please

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  2. Jim Wingrove says:

    Good work 😊

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  3. Bruce Cooper says:

    God’s love for you is far greater than the mountains that you face. Every day brings new grace, if you but trust in Him, Dani. One step at a time, one day at a time. He will lift you, if you let Him. Just lifted you in prayer. Blessings Dani.

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