With my most recent med adjustment, I’ve been feeling pretty optimistic and go getter-ish. Now at 9:07pm at work, my depression has hit me like a ton of bricks. Like what the hell am I doing working all these hours, you piece of shit person. Why don’t you just off yourself; you’re worth more dead…

I feel like lots have happened since I blogged last. I believe I wrote on Tuesday night, right before I left work. If I am correct, right after I posted my blog, my dad texted me to call him when I am off work and to come home immediately. This was unusual for my dad…

I am gonna do a bullet list of all the things that are now happening and then I will itemize them each line. I had to go in and pay a doctor visit bill and I was confused so I asked the available nurse and said my A1C is 5.0 which isn’t even pre diabetic…