I swear I am a human wrecking ball

It becomes apparent every time you call

I am toxic; a straight up disease

who only aims to please

you.

I muddy the waters and can’t fucking swim

yet I always seem to win

the war but never the argument

I seem to say what I never meant

Tongue tied and idolized

somehow I break your heart

it’s easier than making a piece of art

find myself intertwined in chains

I only have myself to blame

I romanticize the pain

Lucky you who gets to run away

I can’t run away from myself

God knows I tried

I sit and cry on my wrecking ball

made of chains as I put myself

up against a wall

my phone doesn’t say your name anymore

at least at my core

I know I am worthless.