Two days ago I started feeling some intense pain coming from my bladder. I thought it might be a bladder disease flare up but after going to the doctor yesterday, I have a pretty significant UTI. I took my third pill of my seven day antibiotics but I have no relief yet. I am allergic to most antibiotics for one reason or another so I don’t think I am on the best antibiotic for my condition, but hopefully it begins to work soon because I don’t want the infection to travel to my kidneys.

I still haven’t heard back from my job yet about my background check and my drug test. It kind of worries me why it’s taking so long. I don’t think there should be any issues with it. But I don’t want to keep calling and burdening them with when will it be done so I can start work. Maybe if I don’t hear back by the end of today, I will call mid Monday morning.

I am dealing with a lot of boredom lately. I want to occupy my time with something productive but now that I am not in school, I got too much time on my hands. Being sick is taking my energy out of me but in the moments that I am not pain ridden, I want to do something but I am unsure of what.

I have been drawing more lately to pass the time but it doesn’t really hold my interest. Now that I am sober from all substances it’s hard for me to enjoy the things I used to do while mainly intoxicated. I need to clean but my pain has me in bed using my heater blanket to help alleviate some pain. I need to do a lot of things around the house but either my energy levels don’t allow it or it doesn’t pique my interest… or both.

I thought about buying another gaming console now that I have time to kill and I thought that was stupid considering the fact that I never used my Nintendo before but then again I have all of this spare time. After that impulse happened, I took a step back from technology and started reading a book. I don’t need to impulse buy anything but I do need to find some sort of hobby to keep me substance free.

The issue with me and hobbies is that I get bored easily. So I can’t do one thing for too long because I become disinterested and no longer care.

If you all have any ideas for me, let me know in the comments! I am willing to try just about everything.

My mental health is doing better without substances and I am appreciative of that. I feel stir crazy but besides that, I think I can manage.

much love,

Dani