A lot of disbelievers in religion as a whole would ask why anyone who would believe in God or a Higher Power if they allow suffering in the world, whether it be through natural disasters or illness or what have you. I used to argue with those non believers and state that our suffering is only to make us stronger and to rely on Him through the pain. Now I am not so sure.

I am not sure what the right answer to that question is, but seeing my mother’s mental illness progress to the point where she’s eating very little and cannot be alone is bothersome to me. I have prayed about it, but that isn’t going to solve her issue of finding a psychiatrist who can properly prescribe her medication that will reduce the hallucinations and other mental illness symptoms.

My friend just texted me that Thanksgiving is almost a week away and frankly, I am not sure what we are going to do depending on how the next few days go with my mom.

My sister went over to her house and stayed with my mom just about until my dad came home from work which allowed me to stay at Diego’s. Usually I am the first to leave and go be with her so I am glad my sister could be there with her.

I feel like my life is so good whereas so many are suffering, including my own family. I am at a loss of what to do.

Prayers are much appreciated. Thanks for reading.

Much love,

Dani