
I wake when the sun is gone, I go to sleep when the sun is gone. Where art thou sun?
Damn I should be a poet. lol
I slept exceptionally good last night. But the mask I wear that is attached to the cpap machine makes my face break out into either acne or little white welts on my face around the bridge of my nose. So I must figure out what is causing it to do so….
Yesterday I worked my roughly 13 hour day. It was a good day overall, got some atta girl’s from other staff that I was a “go-getter and connected well with clients.” I felt as though the clients were learning to trust me, which is good. I guess I am good at building rapport with clients because I am real with them; I don’t bullshit, I validate them and take the time to truly listen which is something that is often overlooked in an institutional setting, believe it or not.
This morning I woke up around 5am despite my not crashing until midnight or so. I went back to sleep til around noon, ate lunch, and now here I am in my natural habitat, which is blogging in my bedroom aka the lair. I think I am working two more days, twelve hour days in my department Friday and Saturday. It will be exhausting to say the least, but it will be well worth it on my paycheck.
Today I had physical therapy. I haven’t been stretching as much as I should, but I definitely want to get back into that. Overall, my foot and leg feel pretty good despite being on my feet a lot more than I probably should. I am trying not to over do activity on my foot because I don’t want to revert back to pain. But then again, now that I feel 95% healed, it’s hard not to do more than I should.
Once pt was over with, I did some tv watching with my mom, and did some more napping. Around 8pm I realized I needed to get ready for bed for the days ahead so I took a shower and now I am finishing up this very blog post that I have written throughout today between all my sleeping and shenanigans.
Overall today was a good recovery day that I needed very much to recover from my shift yesterday. I am a little anxious about the next two days because I will be working with a new group of people that I am not used to, so we shall see what happens. It should be fine, I really shouldn’t stress about it.
I think this time around in the role I am in, I don’t put as much pressure on myself to change the world or even change one person. I just do as I am told and try to make meaningful connections with others and just listen. Because that’s all I am really capable of doing and not expecting the world to change or suddenly revolve around myself or my clients is huge. I am hoping with this small epiphany that I won’t get as burned out as I did before, but I also have the luxury of working part time and only working when I want to work which is huge as well.
I think that’s it for me today. What is going good in your life right now?
Much love,
Dani
What is good in my life? I’m struggling with that question right now though my heart knows a ton is my bipolar brain is refuting it all. Overall though i can say my children are good and i have a roof over my head and good to eat and not everyone can say that so i am blessed
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