Today is the day I found out I made it. Today, April 27th, 2021, I was accepted into Washington State University’s online psychology program. Today is the day I scheduled my first dose of the covid vaccine. Next week I have my covid test scheduled. Next week I get my car back. Next week I have left ankle surgery.

Life is good.

God is good.

I never thought I would live to see these moments.

The last time I gambled was September 14th, 2020. It was also the day that I was very suicidal and made a plan to end my life. One week later, I would be receiving my second foot surgery and first knee surgery.

But that day, my best friend talked me out of killing myself. I reevaluated my life and its purpose. I never want anyone to feel the way I did that day; suicidal and so detrimentally unhappy and filled with addictive tendencies.

My new found life purpose was to become a designated crisis responder. To receive my Master’s in Social Work to help those most vulnerable get out of their addiction(s) and help with any mental health issues they may have.

I went to San Diego and had the time of my life. I applied to University of Washington Tacoma’s social work program and I didn’t get in. I was devastated. It felt like my reason to be alive no longer mattered any longer.

I then decided to give it one last shot and apply to WSU’s psychology program online. With that being said, after nearly three months of going back and forth with admissions, I did it. I was accepted into the university.

This wouldn’t have been possible without you, my readers, here at Precarious Aquarius. You have given me the courage to find myself as a writer and as a bipolar woman, but more importantly, I have found myself and accepted myself and my humanity. It hasn’t always been easy, but it’s always been worthwhile and today is a reflection of that.

Life is good.

God is good.

Much love,

Your #FutureCoug

Dani