Today is October 1st, which marks the beginning of the last 90 days of the year 2020. Most people would state that 2020 is their worst year yet and they are ready to be rid of it. I, however, am somewhat indifferent to this time of my life, but I know this much: I want to make the most of this year and all we have is now; we can’t change the past or know the future, but we can utilize the present and that’s what I’m aiming to do.

I’ve discussed in previous posts that I am participating in the Last 90 Days Challenge which asks you to work out for thirty minutes a day, drink half your body weight in ounces of water, give up a type of food or drink, write down 10 thing you’re grateful for, and get up an hour earlier than you normally do.

I woke up at 6 a.m. today and proceeded to fall asleep until 9:30 a.m. because I hadn’t slept at all the night prior. I drank about 45 ounces of water which is roughly half of my goal. I gave up red bull which I was successful in not consuming today. I have yet to write down what I am grateful for and since I can’t work out, I chose to delve into my bible for thirty minutes daily in order to build my relationship with God.

This last goal for the challenge is an interesting one for me because the last time I cracked open my bible was on January 3rd, 2020. The only reason I know that was I wrote it down on the inside cover of the Bible itself with the written reminder of my bible plan. I am excited yet nervous about this challenge because I want to get to know God more through scripture, yet I know myself well enough that I will quit the challenge and stop reading my bible after day 5 or so.

Today, Day 1, was successful as far as scripture reading goes. I read Genesis 1-4. I know it’s not much, but I don’t want to overburden myself with information and then get to the point where I no longer want to read my bible anymore. I figure slow and steady wins the race.

The scripture that piqued my interest the most from what I read today was Genesis 4:7 which reads, “You will be accepted if you do what is right. But if you refuse to do what is right, then watch out! Sin is crouching at the door, eager to control you. But you must subdue it and be its master.” God said this to Cain after accepting his brother’s gift, but not Cain’s. Cain reacted to this event by killing his brother, Abel, out of what I assume was jealousy.

It seems very apparent to me that obeying God’s orders makes for an easier life; one without sin. But the more we disobey Him, the harder it becomes to be sin’s master, so to speak. I think it’s one thing to know this mentally, but to confirm it with scripture is another thing entirely. We grow closer to God by reading about Him and getting to know him and his mysterious ways, which is exciting to me.

Although it is day 1, I am filled with this renewed energy to pursue Him and to learn more about Him. I am thrilled to see what is in store for me. Hopefully this renewed mindset carries on throughout the rest of the year and through my recovery.

Til next time,

Dani