I stated earlier this month that I would stay with Blogtober this year, especially because I am not currently working a 9-5 thus far, but ya know… life be life-ing. I had yet another ER stint for what I was told by my PCP was a kidney infection last Friday because my pain in my flank and abdomen is unbearable. But they basically told me there was no reason for my pain and that im making shit up, which was frustrating. So I left the ER in tears with apparently “no reason” for blood in my urine, high white blood cells in my urine, among other notable markers of infection.

My fear that it really is a kidney infection and my body has not responded to any antibiotics (three whole rounds of it) and so yesterday I barged into my PCP’s office and told them what happened. They did a stat urine culture which I should receive the results of today and hopefully I can get on antibiotics that im not resistant to OR I start to at the very least, feel better.

My brain is in overdrive with mania today. My husband, Kyle got up in a tizzy this morning at 3:44am thinking he was late to work even though today is his day off of work. So once we realized at 4am he wasn’t late because he wasn’t on the schedule to begin with, we could finally breath. But then we were both wide awake and I already did an online grocery pickup order, I did our budget for the week, Kyle got a fire up and going and now we’re watching our favorite show: Deadliest Catch. We are currently on season 15 episode 11 on HBO Max. Oh yeah, and I threw up my meds or what I assume was my Abilify (anti-psychotic). So not only am I manic as all else, but I got a migraine the size of Texas. I’ve been feeling too poorly to do much of anything, including blogging.

Everyday I contemplate writing and I push it off until I aim too tired and say to hell with it and procrastinate until the next day. I definitely am a morning writer. I am refreshed and get more rummy near the end of the day even though the end of the day has a better recap since the day is already complete for writing purposes. Yeah… definitely more thoughtful in the morning, but more creative at night time so it’s a hard balance of what is the right amount of thoughtful and creativeness.

Kyle had his colonoscopy last Friday and considering he almost died in April, he is doing remarkably well. Doctors did a few biopsies and checked for celiac disease so we’ll find out if we can get rid of the gluten free diet or not. I mean, we aren’t perfect as far as being 100% gluten free, but it’s maybe 1-2x a week we go rogue and get Taco Bell but he gets the “better” options there as far as minimal gluten intake goes lol. Gluten is so hard to avoid and I *really* miss spaghetti because I have never found a gluten free noodle that’s even remotely close to how it should taste compared to the “real” noodle. But if we have to remain 905 gluten free for our lives, so be it.

I’m supposed to hear about a job interview interviewed for last week either today or tomorrow. I really need this job and it’s something that I would not only be good at, but I would thoroughly enjoy. I emailed them yesterday asking for a status update, but I may need to call, I’m unsure because if they are taking their time, that sucks, but I’ll live. I don’t want to rush them and have them not pick me for being too adamant but I have to shoot my shot sometime.

I think that’s about it for an update. I apologize for not writing more this month; I might call it quits of Blogtober this year… too many indefinites and balls in the air for me to handle all this stuff.

But most importantly, Kyle and I had our O N E Y E A R *MARRIED* A N N I V E R S A R Y on October 11th. We did absolutely nothing because our wedding anniversary was literally the day after his colonoscopy so we laid low and we’re also broke so we couldn’t afford to do anything, anyway/ But that’s ok. I am just happy and thankful I didn’t lose my husband to sepsis this past year and he’s still on the mend.

Much love,

Dani