Today was a decent enough day. The above picture is my favorite photo taken today by my mother of my husband, Kyle and I. I had my mom be our free photographer so we could get anniversary photos together right before Kyle and I’s first wedding anniversary, which is October 11th (today is October 6th aka Blogtober day 6).

I started today with a slow morning of getting ready for yet another job interview. This one was for a community job coach where I act as a liaison between employers and managers and workers with disabilities. I feel like I did well with my interview and should hear back by the end of the week with a decision either way as they finish up interviewing some other candidates. It’s not that I don’t have confidence in my work ethic, but I don’t think I’ll get the job. I did well in the interview, but will it be good enough and would I be considered “better” than the other candidate(s)? I guess, we’ll see.

One flaw of the gen Z’ers (me born in 1998) that I can actually see being true is our fear of failure. Rejection is hard and I think it’s fair to say kids these days aren’t as resilient as other generations before us. I know that I’m not afraid to try new things, but if that new thing doesn’t work out at all or how I intended it to be, then I feel rejected and act like I had just been rejected; acting all butthurt and whatnot.

After my interview, I came home and greeted my lovely husband at the door who was storming toward the house, red in the face. He told me he was most definitely was going to get written up by his store director because at the end of his shift, Kyle’s boss demanded overtime from him and that isn’t legal or allowed; his boss cannot force overtime, Kyle can and did say no. His boss said “excuse me?!” And Kyle repeated himself. He said no, he would not stay to finish the list (he works in produce in fresh cut) and then Kyle clocked out and drove straight home. So Kyle said he would get written up for insubordination and I applauded him for standing up for himself to his dick of a boss who uses and abuses him and his team and abuses Kyle’s kindness.

I mean, if Kyle loses his job… that would be extremely bad, but a little defiance is definitely warranted. I mean… if he did lose his job, I wouldn’t even be mad because he is so miserable there… but I don’t wish that upon us due to our already poor financial situation. I told him we didn’t have to do our family photos today but he showered and insisted we did it, so family photos were had and they turned out wonderful.

Once Kyle and I got home, we ate leftover zuppa Toscana soup and he went straight to bed at 5pm and it’s now after 8:30pm and he’s still resting. I felt bad for him today but I am happy he stayed true to his promise of getting our photos done before our anniversary… the only reason there was a rush on that is because Kyle is getting another colonoscopy and endoscopy since they found a dark spot in his small intestine after his bowel obstruction surgery and so this procedure is scheduled for Friday, the 10th. I know he’s going to be in pain and sore and tired from the procedure on Friday and on our actual anniversary, we won’t do much of anything. He has it off work but will be recovering so I don’t expect anything plus we don’t have the money to do anything anyways so I guess this gives us more of a reason to stay home and chill out.

As much as I love being in my newly remodeled home with my husband, after 3+ months of unemployment, I’m sick of my house. There is only so much to do or to watch or to doom scroll and there is only so many nooks and crannies that I can deep clean. I’ve done al of the above and I can’t take it. As much as I complain about work, I need to go back. I’m bored to tears. I mean, I needed a break and to deal with all the construction folk coming in and out when our house was being remodeled but since things are somewhat back to normal, I feel like I’m ready to go back with a clean slate.

That’s it for me folks. Until tomorrow for the next day of #blogtober !!!

Love, Dani