It’s been a crazy and eventful week. First off, I’ll start with some of the good news…

I got my nine months sober coin from my mom on May 17th, so I am officially alcohol and weed free for 9 months as of the 17th. My mom gave me her nine months sober coin and a card to celebrate and I feel more secure in my sobriety than I have in the past with my other sobriety dates. It is weird since I haven’t been sober this long since I was 17 or 18. It may not be much to some, but it’s a whole new world for me. I feel so good inside and out. In other sobriety news, I became the co-chair for trusted servants at my AA hall for corrections; so essentially bring meetings to jail and/or prisons to the women who are locked up. I felt called to the position because that could easily be me right now but thanking God that it isn’t me currently. I was and acted like I was too good to be in jail; how much of an entitled little shit I was… SMH… Anyways I am co-chairing that position with my sponsor so I need to meet with her to go over semantics and procedures for how we would like things run.

I have been at my job for two weeks today. It is currently 5:09am and I am working til 8am, I have outpatient treatment 9-11am and AA from noon to 1pm. I want to see Kyle since he gets off at some point this Monday afternoon and has Tuesday off. I don’t work again until Wednesday night so I got some time to be free and do school things.

I am unsure if I told y’all before but I will not be graduating this quarter as I had to drop my human biology lab. One day I was late to lab so they wouldn’t let me in, the next week my schizoaffective was rearing its ugly head and I couldn’t bring myself to go and the third week I said to myself, “Who am I kidding here?” I asked my teacher if I could still turn a five weeks in – failing grade and make it so I could still graduate and basically he put it back on me and said if you do the work, mathematically I could ace the class. So within three minutes of receiving that email, I dropped the class to receive a ‘W’ for withdrawal for the term. I am still taking the remaining 17 credits and doing quite well actually. I am excited because if I can pass these classes, I will literally be one lab science credit short of actually pulling this whole thing off. Classes for next quarter don’t start until July 1st-August 22nd-ish. I got to figure out how to afford another class but that’s another blog topic for another day.

Work is actually going quite well. I feel like my now on-call position might get moved to full time which would give me benefits which I need instead of being on Molina Medicaid through Washington Apple Health. I like the flexibility of such a lax schedule and filling in, when and if I can but at the same time insurance and structure sounds nice. I know I am still new, but I feel like the only way I could burn out from this job is if the graveyard shift gets too much to me. But my boss is very empathetic and caring so I feel like she’d want me to work for her in any capacity that would suit me best.

I’m not trying to put the cart before the horse, though. I feel good with the position I am in and can see a future here and in my life with everything that is going on.

God is good.

Much love,

Dani