I have a good feeling that something is going to happen in my own favor. Maybe that is superstitious thinking, but maybe I might be lucky this time around.

I had a job interview today, in person and I crushed it. They have more interviews to conduct this week, but I should hopefully hear back about next steps on Friday or at the latest, Monday. This definitely boosted my confidence before and after the interview because I know and felt that I did really well. As my dad says, “You’re great at getting the job, it’s about keeping the job…” It’s low key a Seinfeld reference when Jerry says “Anyone can take a reservation, but it’s about holding the reservation that makes it a reservation.” Or something to that effect.

All weekend I have been deep cleaning. I cleaned out my closet of ratty clothes, clothes that didn’t fit or I just never wore anymore and donated whatever was in decent shape. I have a bag full of scrub tops and bottoms that I will sell on Facebook Marketplace since those are worth good money. I bought a sturdy wooden, painted white dresser with four wide drawers and almost four feet tall for $40.00 at Goodwill in addition to a mint condition Coach handbag for $37.00. I will sell the rest of my other purses for extra cash and I gave my boyfriend my smaller, fabric dresser with a metal frame because he needed it and I needed space for this bigger, nicer dresser. So it was a win-win. I can now store all my lingerie, jammies, sweatpants and sweatshirts and I just finished all my laundry tonight so that I can hang up my clothes tomorrow morning whatever doesn’t fit in my new dresser.

I got rid of all the trash and recycling that had been accruing in my room. I just need to clear off my bed of my planners and books and my two desks need to be cleared of rubbish and some papers need to be filed away i.e. tax documents.

But then I have a five foot by five foot square area of just boxes of my stuff in the downstairs living room that I need to go through. I haven’t used any of the stuff in over a year so I could probably discard or donate most things, but it’s a big task because there are some keepsake items in those boxes. I just feel alive again focusing on myself and what’s best for me.

What’s best for me right now is keeping busy so I don’t get too depressed about my situation. This is my last week in intensive outpatient so after this week I will attend class two times a week for two hours a session versus the three – three hour sessions I have been doing since December. So four hours a week versus nine hours is a big difference since I still have to attend two sober support groups a week (I.e. AA).

I got some side jobs this week, one being cleaning my ex-fiance’s house for some cash and him buying us take out and then watching my ex-fiance’s little brother who is fourteen and has Down syndrome and autism so I’m doing that for some cash for like five hours on Wednesday and Thursday. Tuesday (tomorrow) I am cleaning Diego’s house. Low key excited because I get to see my old houndy boy named Poncho! And I love seeing Diego’s little brother because he is adorable and he makes me smile.

So I’m not terribly busy but I’m keeping up with my obligations and today I prepared my budget planner and my everyday planner for the month of March. I’m doing an equitable amount of work to play to rest ratio and I feel damn proud of myself. Things are looking up right now and I am living for it.

Thanks for reading and always feel free to reach out in the comment section or email me at theprecariousaquarius@gmail.com .

Much love,

Dani