Long time no blog! Hello all! I hope all is well with my fellow precarious Aquarius friends…. I’ve been.. alright. Not going any where but definitely needed a break from everything, including writing. But on my now Friday night, I am up well past 0200am and need to be up by 7:30am in order to attend my intensive outpatient class.

A lot has happened in a month since I last wrote.

I have been “sentenced” to 3 months of intensive outpatient treatment followed by six months of outpatient treatment, totally approximately nine months. I have to random UA and call in every day Monday through Friday and as of the past three weeks, I have had to give a UA 3x per week so there is no room for even a “weekend slip” I found out that in a UA, even alcohol can make you pop 2-3 days after you consume any amount. I haven’t had to worry about the slip though… I have been sober since August 17th, 2023 and that means well over 100 days sober of weed and alcohol!

I had to go to court last month and it got continued out for a third time, but last week my attorney and the prosecutor came to an agreement. My first DUI charge would be dropped altogether, and my second goes to a negligent driving in the first degree after two years of good behavior (deferred; Pretrial Diversion Agreement). This was my agreement with my first DUI but since I was arrested the day of my last court hearing and the jailers didn’t notify me to come to court even though I was right fucking there, they made this agreement. Also, I was ordered to have an ignition interlock device in my car, which I now have, but once I go back to court on January 16th, my attorney will try to get the blow and go out of my car because it’s expensive and obnoxious on top of all this extra treatment they have me doing because it is “required”.

I got a car! November 17th, I got a 2013 Toyota RAV4 AWD that is emerald green with black cloth interior and a sun roof and a backup camera and an alright sound system. It kinda sucked because I had my mom test drive my car because I needed the blow and go installed before I could drive it, so I couldn’t test drive my own car before purchasing it. But luckily I love it, she’s quick and sharp looking. Her name is Ricki the RAV4. I might save up for a better sound system because that is important to me since I spend so much time in my car. Thankfully, my blow and go place is also an electronics store so they install radios and speakers and heated seats all the time so I might get a quote to do all of that. Oh yeah, I negotiated down the sales price nearly 3 grand on the RAV! It was listed for $17,009 and im like oh hell nah so I said $13,995 and they went down to $14,500 and we ended up settling on $14,250 which I was ecstatic about.

Life is good. I found a sponsor this week who got sober around my age and now has 42 years sober. She first met me when I first tried getting sober after my first DUI and I never stuck with it. But she was so happy and welcoming when I saw her at the AA picnic when I was newly sober the second time around. I kinda ran into her at a meeting and she didn’t force me to have her be my sponsor but she pushed for it. We discussed the first three steps and now im on the fourth which is creating a fearless moral inventory of ourselves. Then we share with our sponsor. That will be hard because you’re supposed to write all the good (and the bad) that we have done throughout our lives. I am not so much worried what my sponsor will think but more so what I will think of myself after I do that…. but maybe that’s the point?

It’s now close to 3am and I gotta be up in 4 hours for my IOP class at 9am on the other side of town. I’m fairly awake and wanna work on my 4th step but I should *probably* sleep.

It feels good to be punching the damn keys though.

much love,

Dani