I feel like so much happens each and every minute of every day that it gets harder to update ya’ll every couple of weeks. I know I should write more often but it seems damn near impossible with all that is going on…

On October 24th, I had an appointment with my PCP to lower my medication and to have a letter written by her to the courts and to the prosecutor that my medicine caused the accident, not alcohol. So we reduced my lithium amounts from 900mg a day down to 600mg and secured the letter. I have court on Monday, November 13th so I’ve sent the letter to my attorney and I will speak with him either Sunday or the morning of in order to see if the prosecutor and him could strike a deal in my favor or if this shit will get continued out another month or so or if it will… dun dun dun!!! …Go to trial which I don’t foresee happening but ya never know.

On October 30th, I received a reversal in appeals court which essentially means after 36 minutes of testimony from my former employer and myself in appeals court via phone that I won my case! received my $2,996.00 after Washington State taxes, thank you much, earlier this week. I’ve been looking at affordable vehicles to buy and got my father’s blessing to purchase one… after we hear back from court on Monday…. so just a little longer. If I wait til next Friday, I will get another paycheck in my bank account and will see how long I will need an interlock ignition device in the new vehicle, if I’ll need one at all depending on how court goes. Because if I need that, that’s less money per month I can spend on a car payment and put down on this car. They aren’t as expensive as I thought they were but still something to consider. Another thing to consider is when GAP insurance will pay off my car that I wrecked because I still owe a balance of $4,633.16 on my Plot after insurance payouts and payouts from cancelled policies and other service contracts. I *should* get a refund for the payments I keep making on this vehicle until it is paid out by GAP insurance and the difference between $646 a month paid from the date of loss til the day the loan closes out will make up my refund, so at the very least three months, nearly 2 grand I will receive once I get that resolved. I called GAP today and I resubmitted the final documents that will now go to the claims adjuster for final review; payment takes 3-6 weeks to be adjudicated and processed so hopefully by Jan 1, I get my refund.

I considered waiting until January to purchase a car so there would only be one car loan on my credit report but my credit is so poor anyways, I don’t think paying off 4000 is gonna make much of a difference in my interest rate in regard to getting this new to me car…. the interest is gonna be high regardless since I don’t have a cosigner. And if I buy the car this month, I can work all the overtime I want at work, make money to pay off the vehicle quickly or refinance once I do get the Pilot off my credit report and continue to make payments on everything else.

On November 1st, I went to urgent care for a UTI. By Friday it wasn’t getting better with antibiotics and so Saturday night I had to go to ER and was there for eight hours in a triage room with an IV injecting my with antibiotics, toroidal (shitty, non narcotic pain meds), and fluids. I had a kidney infection so the UTI had spread and they did a CT scan of my abdomen and several urine samples and cultures. Clearly the infection was getting worse, but I also had a hemorrhagic cyst in my left ovary as well as “ground glass material in both bases of my lungs” that I found out today are most likely caused by vaping heavily for six years. I am supposed to get a full Ct scan of my lungs around my birthday in February to follow up and figure out if it’s inflammatory or infection or if it caused or created COPD or the other “c” word… ya know. The cancer…

I say “had” previously in regard to my ovarian cyst because I’ve been heavily bleeding the last day or so and it’s not my period and my IUD was fine in the ct scan so my doctor today said it may have burst and that’s what is causing my pelvic pain.

In other news, I am almost done taking my antibiotics and I feel like the kidney infection is clearing up. I am in pain due to the cyst and my lungs hurt from having to cough so hard to the point I puke and spit up some blood clots that sometimes looks dark and almost resembles coffee grounds… which I know that is not healthy. I got the nicotine gum in the mail and so I gotta start chewing that asap to quit smoking because I don’t need to die in the next 3-6 months for six years of smoking. Low key kinda pisses me off that people smoke for 40 years straight and nothing! But me, start vaping for its “health benefits” compared to cigarettes, cigars, and chew and get cancer COPD or whatever I may have as a result… smh. Obviously I knew this could happen. I’m not naive. But I also don’t really want to quit; im being medically retired out of smoking which almost feels worse than just quitting on my own accord because I want to quit.

Otherwise I got nothing. I feel like each day I find out something good and bad so it kinda evens out when my multiple personalities decide for the moment what mood I’ll be in for that hot second. So I’ve been chilling. Nothing too crazy. I think that is everything so I am going to log off for now.

Much love.

Dani