I don’t remember the last time I blogged on the Precarious Aquarius. I feel like that opening line is getting quite old, but it’s the damn truth and I’m sticking to it. So Dani, where have you been? I’ve been on a self improvement track and making some good headway so far.

Let’s start with the basics. I work 40-50 hours a week and I have been working more the past three weeks to make up for lost time and so I can attend appointments during the regular work shift so I take a couple hours off here and there and then work a whole other shift on a day off I have, since I work four 10’s with three days off. This week in particular, I worked 5 days, 50 hours. So Friday (today) was my first day off. I went to an AA meeting and took my mom to her doctor’s appointment and did a toiletry and household haul at Walmart. Because I am currently without a car, I’ve been very frugal as of late so it was kind of nice to buy things that make me feel well and that I also very much needed.

After errands, I started laundry and did my budget since I got paid today. In good news, I have saved $1,100.00 since my car accident which isn’t much but I’m paying for a lot of things out of pocket like I have a drug and alcohol assessment due on the 21st of this month that is $300.00 and I gotta factor that and the other court requirements into the budget and pay the bare minimum on my vehicle until insurance pays off the $26,000 owed on the Honda loan and then GAP insurance will pay the remaining $12,000 and I will be car payment free hopefully by the end of this year. My hope is that I can purchase a vehicle by mid October and I will have enough to buy a somewhat reliable vehicle outright and not have a car payment which would be huge considering I will have to afford a car breathalyzer every month in this “new” vehicle.

In other good news, I have been sober from gambling three months on the 20th and once midnight hits, I will be sober of alcohol and weed for 24 days. Even when I was sober two years ago, I only made it 23 days without drinking or weed so once I take it to day 24 sober, I’ll feel not as shitty about myself. I mean that in the sense that I somehow failed by relapsing the first time… I always feel some sort of guilt for prior wrong doings.

I have court not next week, but the week after and I’m nervous to some extent but like I was telling my mom before the AA meeting that I have to face my problems head on now and I can’t hide from my problems with weed or booze. The only way out is through.

I think that’s all the updates I have for this post, I went to the doctor on Tuesday and my bloodwork is all in range except I need to eat more protein and my risk for heart disease is still high, but it’s way lower than it was a few months ago so all things I can fix with nutrition.

I have been working on my coping skills; been doing a lot of coloring at work, and doing my budget, my planner, reading and even a little bit of video games! So not all work makes Dani a dull girl…

Much love,

Dani