It is officially July 1st, which marks the halfway point between the beginning and end of the year 2023. It is never too late to start something new and make today your day one. So I’ll discuss some habits I tracked in the month of June, what I will carry over in July and just some general life updates and why I haven’t logged on much to Precarious Aquarius.

For June 2023, it was my second month using an analog habit tracker. Which just so you know, can be done through various applications on your phone, or you can keep track in your notes app or create your own on paper or on a tablet. But me personally, I enjoy color coding and writing it down because it helps me remember the best.

My categories were:

-mood tracker

-medication check

-PRNs taken?

-Self care

-Weight

-Reading (Bible or other)

-Blog Post

-Alcohol intake

-Cannabis intake

-No casino

-sex count

So for the most part this worked out quite well for me. I love my mood tracker to see the variations that I get day by day from manic to depressed to level headed to delusions, hallucinations, and paranoia. I take my meds every day and often times don’t use my PRN (as needed) medication so those categories were not very well utilized. Self care I did a little every day so that didn’t really need to be tracked. Weight I liked because it varied greatly during different times of the month. Reading, I did 3/30 days in the month which is terrible but it’s something I want to work on so I am carrying that task over to July.

As for vices, they overall increased since last month with the exception of the casino which I went once at the beginning of June and haven’t been since which is awesome. But alcohol, sex, and cannabis intake has been greater in each respective category.

Alcohol was 12/30 days and cannabis was 18/30 days. I’ll be honest, I have smoked everyday and all day long the last ten days for both recreation, but more so because of pain since the 26th of June, I had to get an IUD for medical reasons (my hormones were too low on my hormonal birth control so I switched to the non hormonal IUD per my doctor) I went to Planned Parenthood because they could get me in the soonest and as terrible of a procedure that was to get something up my uterus, the staff was great and they answered all my questions and were knowledgeable.

Honestly this pain has compared to nothing I have ever experienced or imagined and I’ve been through some pretty brutal shit, in my humble opinion. I have been alternating Tylenol and ibuprofen as well as taking edibles and like I said, it’s. been rough. It gets better each day but it ebbs and flows since I haven’t had a legitimate menstrual cycle since I’ve been on the pill for eight years and now it’s like… payback for not having a period so the bleeding has been bad since the 26th. Sorry for some that think it’s too much information to share with the world and to that I say, “Everything I write on here is probably TMI to share so either deal with it or don’t read my blog.”

So the categories I am bringing over on the habit tracker for July would be mood tracker, weight, reading (Bible or other), if I blogged or not, at least 40 ounces of water, added exercise for 30 minutes, bringing back the period tracker now that I will definitely have periods again, cannabis intake, alcohol intake, no casino, and sex count.

For those of you who don’t know, I mean I don’t know why you would know this lol, but I went for a three mile up hill walk for a first date with a man and I liked the man, but hated how out of shape I was when walking up said hill because it was fucking ridiculous and it made me realize I can’t do this anymore… meaning not working out. My legs are finally not sore as of today, four freaking days later which is why I am adding thirty minutes of working out to my list of to do’s on my habit tracker.

I start work a week from Monday at my old job which is at a mental health facility and I am very excited about it. I am ready to jump in and make some money as I am sick of being in debt and falling behind on bills because I haven’t been able to work or to receive unemployment benefits because they won’t make a decision if I qualify or not. I mean, the system is overwhelmed with people trying to collect unemployment but when you are relying on that money to make ends meet and it has been over two months since I have gotten paid by anyone it’s hard when you have burned through the little savings that you have. My stress has stress.

I am trying to think of other things I want to work on in the next coming months and I can’t really think of anything besides blogging more about my mental health journey and whatever comes with that as well as just being honest with myself about the progress that I have made and the progress that is yet to be made.

My mental health has been all out of sorts with my unemployment, I have noticed I am sleeping a lot more out of boredom and I am extremely agitated in the evenings like manic energy that I don’t know what to do with. Like I said, I am Stressed, capital ‘S’. But I am hoping I will get some relief here soon.

that’s all I have for today, so thanks for reading.

much love,

Dani