I don’t even remember the last time I blogged or what it regarded to be quite honest with y’all. I want to say I’ve been busy with work or saving the world or some cool bullshit like that but no.

I have been struggling to get up and do the basic things in life like shower and get out of bed and feed myself. I wouldn’t say that I am depressed because I’ve been either level headed or slightly manic with a lot of agitation. But I think the agitation this time around is more of a sign of depression than mania. I usually associate mania and agitation because my agitation leads to more reckless behavior. However, I think this time I’ve been acting in reckless behavior because I no longer wish to feel numb. I wish to feel somewhat stable and level headed. I want to feel good. Well. At least not like suicidal and shit.

Today I have two interviews, one for a bank which is already said and done. I think it went well and I should hear by the end of the week if the branch manager wishes to do an interview with me since I only interviewed with a recruiter. I have my next interview in an hour for an insurance firm on Zoom. They said they would train the right candidate and I said I was willing to learn. This interview is with the main office in the Seattle area so they blessed me with the ability to do a Zoom interview since the office position is only like 25 minutes from my house. So we shall see how that goes.

Tomorrow I have an interview at the hospital for a patient access rep position which is like ER check in folks. I think it would keep my interest working in the emergency department and I would have the options to work nights which would be nice, especially if there is a shift differential. I could easily see myself doing any of these jobs so I hope at least one sticks and I can start asap.

What else is new? I guess that’s basically it and all I can think of. I think I need to get a job soon not only for the sake of my finances, but I am bored to tears and love to work and as much as I say I hate my job or past jobs, I really don’t and I would be devastated if I don’t find stable employment soon.

Yup that’s my story and I am sticking to it.

Wish me luck.

Dani